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rj_andersonThanks for all the kind and encouraging words in response to my last post. To more fully explain my mental state, I offer this two-part cartoon:
Except with a lot less procrastination and a lot more piano-banging -- or in this case, laptop-banging.
I'm used to having three days twice a month where I can't write or even think straight; I've even come to factor those times into my overall writing schedule, because they're so predictable. This difficulty, on the other hand, can't be written down to any of the usual cyclical-hormonal factors, and it's unnerving me.
I knew I'd be in a bit of a slump after the exhilaration of finishing my revision of Knife: that was why I took a whole week off after finishing the book just to relax and think about other things. I was actually looking forward to getting back to Touching Indigo at the end of that hiatus -- but no matter how I tackled that first scene of Book II, it refused to come together. Even once I got the dialogue down, I couldn't make the narration happen.
And then I went back and looked at the work I'd done on Knife, which at the time I'd been so pleased with and generally proud of -- and I hated every word of it. I picked up another author's book, one I'd read before and enjoyed -- and I found fault with that, too. Which made plain that this was an irrational mental state rather than an objective problem with my ability to write -- but knowing that doesn't actually solve the problem, alas.
I don't feel that taking more time off is the solution, because aside from a few head-bashing attempts I've now taken at least two full weeks off writing -- actually closer to three. And the less I write the more frustrated and daunted I feel, and the more conscious that the lovely productive writing habits I built up over the ten weeks I was revising Knife are going down the toilet.
It would be nice to be able to embrace the "give yourself permission to write crap" philosophy and just hammer out something at random -- but while noble in intent and effective for many, that strategy doesn't work at all for me: if I think I'm writing crap I won't want to write at all. So right now the only thing I can think of is to keep doing something related to writing, even if it's only making notes. Something that allows me to feel like I'm making needed progress, without pressuring me to deliver a level of prose that my brain isn't up to at the moment.
Eventually this block will clear, I know.
I just wish I knew when.
Except with a lot less procrastination and a lot more piano-banging -- or in this case, laptop-banging.
I'm used to having three days twice a month where I can't write or even think straight; I've even come to factor those times into my overall writing schedule, because they're so predictable. This difficulty, on the other hand, can't be written down to any of the usual cyclical-hormonal factors, and it's unnerving me.
I knew I'd be in a bit of a slump after the exhilaration of finishing my revision of Knife: that was why I took a whole week off after finishing the book just to relax and think about other things. I was actually looking forward to getting back to Touching Indigo at the end of that hiatus -- but no matter how I tackled that first scene of Book II, it refused to come together. Even once I got the dialogue down, I couldn't make the narration happen.
And then I went back and looked at the work I'd done on Knife, which at the time I'd been so pleased with and generally proud of -- and I hated every word of it. I picked up another author's book, one I'd read before and enjoyed -- and I found fault with that, too. Which made plain that this was an irrational mental state rather than an objective problem with my ability to write -- but knowing that doesn't actually solve the problem, alas.
I don't feel that taking more time off is the solution, because aside from a few head-bashing attempts I've now taken at least two full weeks off writing -- actually closer to three. And the less I write the more frustrated and daunted I feel, and the more conscious that the lovely productive writing habits I built up over the ten weeks I was revising Knife are going down the toilet.
It would be nice to be able to embrace the "give yourself permission to write crap" philosophy and just hammer out something at random -- but while noble in intent and effective for many, that strategy doesn't work at all for me: if I think I'm writing crap I won't want to write at all. So right now the only thing I can think of is to keep doing something related to writing, even if it's only making notes. Something that allows me to feel like I'm making needed progress, without pressuring me to deliver a level of prose that my brain isn't up to at the moment.
Eventually this block will clear, I know.
I just wish I knew when.
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Date: 2008-03-05 05:02 pm (UTC)I was quite serious about the suggestion to write fanfic, you know. Keeps you limber, but no expectations --
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Date: 2008-03-05 05:21 pm (UTC)I think my sense of play is broken. My brain is all stuck on I B SRS WRITER NAO, even though I don't want it to be. I'm all hung up on efficiency and productivity and following the million contrary rules that other authors/editors/agents have laid out for what makes a good book... and no matter how hard I try to ignore that kind of thinking, it keeps haunting me.
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Date: 2008-03-05 06:15 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-03-05 07:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-03-05 07:24 pm (UTC)As for brainstorming, though, tomorrow night anytime after about 7:30 p.m. EST should work. Before "Lost" is better, but for you, I watch on DVR. Just let me know your schedule.
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Date: 2008-03-06 03:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-03-06 05:25 pm (UTC)My kids go to bed at 8:30 and I go to bed at 10:30, so... would 8:45 be okay?
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Date: 2008-03-07 12:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-03-05 08:02 pm (UTC)Wah! This is of the sadness!
I think my sense of play is broken. My brain is all stuck on I B SRS WRITER NAO, even though I don't want it to be.
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Write some drabbles. Write some lightening fic.